my 4 years are nearly up. . .

My first teaching job. . . I held for 4 years.  Went to ESU for 1 year.  My next teaching job. . . I held for 4 years.  My current counseling job. . . I'm nearing the end of 4 years.  Am I feeling the need for a change?  I'm not going to lie--I am.  I'm not sure how to define how I feel.  Burned out?  Bored?  Not challenged?  Not making a difference?  Not my calling?  I wish I knew the answer.  But, I don't.  So I pray about it.  And pray.  And pray some more.  I've been feeling uncertain about my current job for some time now.  What do I want to do if not what I'm doing now?  WHO THE HECK KNOWS!!!  I would LOVE to be home.  Hot meals on the table, clean house, laundry always caught up, volunteering at school in my boys' classrooms.  Realistic?  Not at this point.  But I can still hope and dream.  I would also LOVE to run my own business.  Restaurant?  Retail?  Service?  WHO THE HECK KNOWS!!!  But, I can once again hope and dream.  I guess I just need to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.

freebies!

Here is what I snagged in the mail this week.  Tide Pods and Downy Unstoppables.  Plus $8 in coupons.  Not bad for a beginner!!!

searching. . .

Do you ever feel that life is just a constant whirlwind?  That's how I feel most days.  I have great to-do lists, but I never seem to get stuff checked off of them.  I have great intentions to follow-through with projects, tasks, etc., but I never seem to follow through.  And I even have great ideas that I truly believe I can accomplish, but once again I lack the drive to finish the task.  I have attempted to make my life more simplistic--will utter failure.  BUT, I am not giving up.  I am still searching for simplicity in my life.  Whether it is the clutter lying around the house or the way I organize the coupons, I am not giving up.  I dream of the day that I can sit back, relax, and not have A SINGLE thing running through my mind.  That is what I am searching for.  Simplicity.  No nagging thoughts running rampant through my brain.  No great plans or ideas churning like a tornado through my mind.  Nothing.  Just nothing.  Ahhhhh.